Reflections of a CPA turned stay-at-home mom as I "journey toward heaven"

Pink Bears in Mara’s Life

In the early days, life was simple. There was Pink Bear. And Pink Bear was The Only Bear. PinkBear2007

I got Pink Bear at Target with a giftcard from Mara’s baby shower, because I really wanted my baby girl to have a little teddy bear from her Mommy.

Mara loved Pink Bear. It used to be that she couldn’t sleep without Pink Bear in her arms. We took Pink Bear when we traveled, so Mara could sleep . . . . or . . . so all of us could sleep!

Mara still loves Pink Bear. But now she also has Yellow Bear, who joined us in May 2007, at Aunt Mary’s in Florida.

Then came Perkle Bear [purple bear] from Grandmom.

And Blue Bear from Great-Grammie.

And now, most importantly, Pink Bear With Hearts.

PinkBearWithHeartsMidJune2009070If you ask Mara where we got Pink Bear with Hearts, and she will tell you: “At the dozing ‘wap!” [clothing swap--about nine months ago] He was free. I’m glad I picked him up. I told Mara she could have one toy from the clothing swap, and she cried when I picked up Pink Bear with Hearts and told me to put him back–she didn’t want him.

But now? Mara and Pink Bear With Hearts are inseparable! In this picture, you can see that Mara wrapped Pink Bear with Hearts in her favorite Pink Binkit (another thing she can hardly sleep without!). Now that’s special treatment!

BabyMosesPinkBearPink Bear With Hearts also answers to “Baby Moses.” And spends many of his waking moments in a basket in the “water” (aka our kitchen floor).

Life is exciting, if you are Mara’s favorite bear!

“I Was ‘Dumpy’”

“Why did Daddy punish me?” my 2-year-old asked. Each time she is punished, she asks the other parent about it, knowing full well why she was punished.

“I don’t know,” I said, having been on a different floor of the house. “Why did Daddy punish you?”

“Because I was dumpy,” she explained.

“You were grumpy?” I repeated. “You didn’t obey sweetly when Daddy asked you to obey?”

“Yes, I was dumpy,” she said.

I’m often amazed (although I shouldn’t be) how often my Bible reading intersects precisely with my daily life! Today’s reading from Exodus 16:

The sons of Israel said to them [Moses and Aaron], “Would that we had died by the Lord’s hand in the land of Egypt, when we sat by the pots of meat, when we ate bread to the full; for you have brought us out into this wilderness to kill this whole assembly with hunger.” . . .  So Moses and Aaron said to all the sons of Israel, “At evening you will know that the LORD has brought you out of the land of Egypt; and in the morning you will see the glory of the LORD, for He hears your grumblings against the LORD; and what are we, that you grumble against us?” Moses said, “This will happen when the LORD gives you meat to eat in the evening, and bread to the full in the morning; for the Lord hears your grumblings which you grumble against Him. And what are we? Your grumblings are not against us but against the LORD.

Two reflections:

  • First, I tend to look back at the “good times”–times of pleasure, physical blessing, financial “plenty”–and grumble. I need to recognize that my grumbling is really (as someone has said) the “highest form of cosmic treason” as I declare to the Lord of the Universe that I don’t like His plan for me.
  • Second, I want to teach my children too that their grumbling is not against Mom and Dad (or their sibling) but against the God who loved them and demonstrated that love in the greatest way by sending His only Son to die on the Cross for them.

I will only be effective in teaching my children, as they see me model these truths in my own life.

Dear Father, help me see your love for me,

in times of plenty and in times of want.

Teach me not to be ‘dumpy’

but instead to cultivate a grateful spirit

for Your faithfulness and constant provision!

Counter-Cultural Gospel Living

The gospel will always be counter-cultural.

Listen to Luke 6:

20And turning His gaze toward His disciples, He began to say, “Blessed [happy] are you who are poor, for yours is the kingdom of God.

21Blessed are you who hunger now, for you shall be satisfied. Blessed are you who weep now, for you shall laugh.

22Blessed are you when men hate you, and ostracize you, and insult you, and scorn your name as evil, for the sake of the Son of Man.

23“Be glad in that day and leap for joy, for behold, your reward is great in heaven For in the same way their fathers used to treat the prophets.

24“But woe to you who are rich, for you are receiving your comfort in full.

25Woe to you who are well-fed now, for you shall be hungry. Woe to you who laugh now, for you shall mourn and weep.

26Woe to you when all men speak well of you, for their fathers used to treat the false prophets in the same way.

27“But I say to you who hear, love your enemies, do good to those who hate you,

28bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.

29“Whoever hits you on the cheek, offer him the other also; and whoever takes away your coat, do not withhold your shirt from him either.

30“Give to everyone who asks of you, and whoever takes away what is yours, do not demand it back.

31“Treat others the same way you want them to treat you.

32If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them.

33“If you do good to those who do good to you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners do the same.

34“If you lend to those from whom you expect to receive, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners in order to receive back the same amount.

35“But love your enemies, and do good, and lend, expecting nothing in return; and your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High; for He Himself is kind to ungrateful and evil men.

36“Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.

37“Do not judge, and you will not be judged; and do not condemn, and you will not be condemned; pardon, and you will be pardoned.

38“Give, and it will be given to you. . . For by your standard of measure it will be measured to you in return.”

The text really speaks for itself. I don’t think I even need to mention that I struggle (we all struggle, in differing degreees) to live this way.

Christ came into our world this way: poor, hungry, weeping, hated by men, insulted and scorned for righteousness’ sake, kind to ungrateful and evil men. He loved men who hated Him–and He died for them! He calls us to that same radical, counter-cultural, self-denying, Christ-exalting life.

But the paradoxical beauty of this kind of living is that ultimately, as we give up ourselves, our lives, our “rights” to follow Christ, we will experience the greatest riches and satisfaction imaginable as we pursue God’s kingdom!

I’m praying that He will change me into this kind of person!

My favorite little boy in all the world!

I sing to Micah-man.

For as long as I can remember, I have been singing this silly little song to him (with the tune “If you’re happy and you know it!”)

He’s my favorite little boy in all the world! [clap, clap]

He’s my favorite little boy in all the world! [clap, clap]

He’s my favorite little boy, He’s my favorite little boy,

He’s my favorite little boy in all the world! [clap, clap]

He is.

I just love him so much!!

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Micah’s Antics

Mara’s been monopolizing the “blog press” these past few days, so I thought I would do a couple posts on my little guy.

Daddy won some office supplies in a contest at work! Micah had fun pulling the sheet protectors off the coffee table and carrying them around in his walker. DaddyWonOfficeSuppliesMidJune2009006

Micah loves music! and he thinks he wants to learn how to play the piano. If he stands on his tippy-toes, he can now reach the keys! PianoMicahTipToesMidJune2009027

Daniel’s grandparents visited from Indiana last week, so Mara & Micah got to spend some time with their great-grands. Here’s Micah with Great-Grammie:MicahGrammieMidJune2009064

He especially seemed to enjoy his time with Great-Grandpa. MicahGreatGrandsMidJune2009053-1

Irresistible!

Daniel was supposed to be watching the kids downstairs as I took about 15 minutes to straighten the house and go to a bridal shower. I was in the bathroom when I heard footsteps on the stairs. (They weren’t Daniel’s footsteps–and Micah rarely wears shoes–so I knew who it was!)

“Mara,” I scolded, “why are you coming upstairs?”

“I’m coming . . . upstairs,” she explained very deliberately, between footsteps, “because . . . I love you.”

And I heard Daniel say from downstairs, “How can you resist that?”

Seriously.

She knows how to get to me!

What a Difference a Year Makes. . .

Last year at this time. . . Micah was learning to take a bottle.

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Here’s Daniel feeding Micah in the NICU. (I adore Micah’s little foot in this picture!)

This year . . . Micah is feeding himself watermelon!

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What a Difference a Year Makes!

The one thing that hasn’t changed? His voracious appetite!

Daniel’s New Shirts From Jos. A Banks

As a print journalism minor, I studied promotions and advertising a bit in undergrad.  I am always entertained and amused by product ads and labels.

Well, as I mentioned last week, Jos. A Banks has a great “Buy One, Get Two Free” sale online on men’s dress clothes going on. Daniel needed both khakis and polos, so I was really excited when his clothes arrived!

I had to laugh though when I read the tag on the polo shirts:

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Daniel has worn them, I’ve washed them, and it’s true! They haven’t:

  • Stained
  • Wrinkled
  • Pilled
  • Shrunk
  • The collars haven’t curled, and
  • They have maintained their color and shape!

Virtually indestructible!

Daniel should be able to wear this shirt for the rest of his life.

I thought, at the bottom of the tag, they just should add, “Till death do us part!”

Family Snapshot: June 2009

“Family Portraits” rarely happen in our home. In fact, we haven’t had any type of professional couple/family pictures since our wedding (although I have taken the kids for pictures) and for someone who likes pictures as much as I do, this is very sad.

So in the rare event that we snap a family “candid,” it will most assuredly end up in this blog!

Last Saturday was one such day. . . Our last family snapshot was in March, so it’s time for a new one! Here it is–FWIW.

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My goal is to get a “real” family portrait in early fall, to send out with the Thanksgiving letter I am planning to write this year!

Swimming, Sloshing, Sweeping

It has rained so much this month! Mara really wanted to be outside, but it was raining, so I told her she could go out if she wore her swimsuit. Naturally, by the time she got out there, the rain had stopped. Here she is, chatting with our neighbor who was sitting on his back porch.SwimsuitInRainMidJune2009082

Mara’s animal crackers are sloshing through vanilla pudding.AnimalCrackersPuddingMidJune2009072

Mara asked me if she could sweep the floor, and then attached one of her crocs to the end of a yardstick.ShoeSweepMidJune2009 049

Thanks, sweetheart! You’re a great big helper!