Random Reflections of a CPA turned Stay-at-Home Mom of Three under Four

I LOVE You, Little Boo!

No time to post tonight, but I can’t let  the day go by without recording that for the first time today, at week 13, I got to hear Little Boo’s heart beating 154 times per minute!

Hearing that heartbeat is just as exciting with the third child as it is for the first. There is a new little life inside me! I love you, Little Boo!!

I will post more on the appointment later. But for now, I just had to say “Yay!! We heard your heart beat!!”

Theology (When You Are Two)

“Mommy!” Mara called from her room. “Jesus is right here! With me! Come and see Him! . . .” She sat smiling smugly on the bed.

“See?” she motioned to the void behind her. “He’s right here.”

Our conversations about Jesus’ presence are becoming more complex. Yes, He is always with us. No, we cannot see Him because He is a spirit.

I pray that God will help her to understand whatever she is capable to understand at this age . . .

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Then. . .  after dinner tonight . . .

“Be quiet now because I’m going to read my Bible,” Mara told me, walking to the couch with her little pink Bible. “I need to read it to Pink Bear.”

So she and Pink Bear sat on the couch, and she opened her Bible.

“When Jesus began, there were lots of things He knew,” she said. “And He wanted you to know, ‘Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right.’”

That’s right, Mara. You tell Pink Bear!

Overheard

The kids are playing in Mara’s room. Micah is standing at the gate by the door shouting (the only thing he shouts): “DA! . . . DA! . . . DA-da! . . .”

And Mara keeps answering (more emphatically with each “DA!”): “He’s at work.”

“He’s at work.”

“He’s at WORK!”

Mara-Speak

Last night Mara announced to us that she was married. Married. This was news to us!

So we asked about the lucky guy. “Who’s your husband?”

“My husband is far, far away,” she said convincingly. “In South Dakota. My husband is Grandma Bubben,” she informed us.

Sooooo–we realized that she’s not really understanding the whole “marriage” or “husband” concepts yet . . .

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Mara [to me, while playing with her phone]: Be quiet now because I need to text Melissa. [Do I say that?]
Mara [on her phone to Melissa, all in one breath]: Hi Melissa, someone loves you and I’m your friend because I call you, and I paint a page [we did watercolor today], and see you next time! Bye!

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One final “note”: we are trying to get our daughter to sing during nursery “song time.” They sing two songs–usually “My God is So Big” and “Hallelu, Hallelu.” Both of which we have practiced at home.

When Daniel and I were in nursery, she just sat there and stared and sucked her thumb–she didn’t sing a bit! So I decided to practice the songs with her at home to be sure she knew the words and the tune. Now we know she knows them.

So on Sunday night I asked her, “Did you sing in nursery tonight?”

“No,” she replied.”But Owen singed!” Owen always sings–very enthusiastically! :-)   So . . . why not, Mara?

“I didn’t sing,” she repeated. “And I told Mommy in my room ‘next Monday I will sing.’”

I’m always a little confused when she inserts days of the week into her sentences, because she rarely does it properly.

So I just ignored that whole comment and asked, “Did they sing ‘My God is So Big’?”

“Yes!” she exclaimed.

“Do you remember the words?”

She sang the entire song–start to finish–with only a little bit of help. . .

So we are still left, trying to figure out what on the earth is going on inside her little head. . . and why she sits and stares and sucks her thumb during nursery song time.

Off To College

DarlaNoelMaraParkYesterday afternoon, my sister-in-law Darla and her friend Noel came over to see the kids.  This is the Aunt Darla who lived with us for over a month last summer to get us through the crazy bedrest/c-section recovery/NICU time during Micah’s birth. The Aunt Darla who helped with meals, housework, watching Mara. The Aunt Darla who taught Mara “Peanut Butter Jelly Time” and splashed with Mara and the kids on our block in puddles in the rain.  The “Aunt Darla” who is leaving for college in South Carolina (along with Noel) this week! They will be missed.

But yesterday, Mara and Micah enjoyed Darla and Noel’s company on the swings and the slide at Park with Seals.We had some serious trauma when Mara took off her shoes to run in the fountain, and instead stepped her little bare feet into some 90-degree gum, which insisted on following her around the park. We left pretty soon after that incident.

But when we got to Park with Benches, Mara was herself again–ready to feed nuts to the squirrels.

It was great fun to watch her running through the grass wildly screaming, “Nuuuuuuutts!!” at the squirrels as she hurled almonds their direction. Of course, the squirrels were busy running up the nearest tree, probably texting their squirrel friends, ‘Back to your nests! Two-year-old on the loose!’

Thankfully (from the squirrel’s perspective) Darla and Noel taught her a little about the approach.

SquirrelsNuts

And as you can see in this shot of Noel, Mara, and The Squirrel, Mara began to get the hang of it.

We got a few pics of Aunt Darla and Noel and the kids too, because they will be gone from now until Christmas . . .

DarlaBacktoSchool

That sounds soo far away! We will miss you!!

But on the flip side, what an exciting time of life!! I loved college! Have a great semester!!!!

God the Healer. God the Provider. We Love You, God.

We were eating dinner after church Sunday night and talking about our friends, the Atchisons. They are pursuing adoption (you can read the beginnings of their adoption story in their blog here), but a car accident this past week seems to be a set-back in the “adoption-funding” process.

I was expressing to Daniel my sadness that their car was totalled, and Mara was trying to understand.  So we told her that their car was broken–so broken that no one could fix it, and they would have to buy a new one.

After this, Mara became very quiet the rest of the meal. Finally she said, “I’m so sad about the little car.”

I sympathized, “We are too, sweetheart.” Maybe it was too much for a two-year-old to bear! :-) After dinner, she was still walking around sadly, and when I asked her what was wrong, she again repeated, “I’m sad about the little car.” I was surprised because that conversation was lonnnng past! Maybe I had been too dismal and negative about it earlier.

“Mara!” I said. “God is going to provide what they need. He will provide a car for Tara and Alan! We just have to wait and see how He is going to do it.”

Right away, Mara said, “Let’s p’ay [pray] about it.”

So Daniel, Mara and I stopped right there in the kitchen and prayed together that God would provide them a car somehow.

After the prayer, I told Daniel that my thumb was really hurting (I have had incessant eczema issues since 1993, particularly on my thumb and forefinger these days).

Mara (not understanding my medical history but believing in God) insisted. “God will heal your thumb, Mommy! God heal my fingers.” She held up two fingers with a sincere smile. “These two fingers! He heal them!”

I wanted to cry. She was sooo concerned about her two fingers (which had minor scrapes) a couple of weeks ago. I promised her that God would heal them. And He did.

She is learning that God is the Healer.

Now she is learning that He is the Provider too.

At bedtime we always pray. Tonight she said, “P’ay about we went to the park.” So we thanked God that we could play at the park, and that Daddy could come too. We thanked God that we could go to church and nursery and learn songs about God. Right before I said “Amen,” Mara again requested, “P’ay about the little car.”

So I prayed confidently, knowing God will provide and thanking Him in advance. Then I said, “Amen.”

Spontaneously my precious little Mara piped up one last time, “And I love you, God!” she declared happily.

I had to fight back tears. It was a beautiful thing–my daughter expressing genuine heartfelt love for God!

I’m beginning to see more and more of the child-like faith in little Mara. It convicts my heart. I pray that that “mustard seed” will continue to grow.

Encouragement from Psalm 139

Between August and the first of October, I’m memorizing Psalm 139. This passage couldn’t come at a more perfect time!

During this timeframe, I will have my first Ob appointment for my 3rd pregnancy at 13-1/2 weeks (August 30) and likely will also have an ultrasound at some point, which will tell us more specifics about our Little Boo!  ;-)

I admit a bit of apprehension going into this pregnancy. Wondering if I will be on bedrest again and how many weeks it would last. Wondering if I will have preterm labor again and how early it will start. Wondering if I will need another C-section or if I’ll be able to go for a VBAC this time. Wondering if he or she will be another preemie and spend the first few weeks in the NICU like Micah did. Wondering if this one will come even earlier or if, now that we know, we could delay labor longer. Wondering who would care for Mara and Micah through all of that. Wondering . . . and (I should just admit it) sometimes worrying.

But none of it will be a surprise to God. All of the things I learn throughout this pregnancy and all the things I see in the ultrasound will be ordained by God before this little one ever existed.

Listen to these verses:

13For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.

14I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.

16Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.

From these verses I learn . . .

  • God designed each aspect of my baby.
  • His design is “wonderful,” a cause for praise! I take this verse with me into the ultrasound. No matter what, God’s design is wonderful, a cause for praise!
  • God sees and knows my baby in my womb. Nothing about his or her development is hidden from–or a surprise to–God.
  • And verse 16 reminds me that the baby will not be “early” or “late.” In God’s book are written, every one of them, the days that are formed for you, my little one, when as yet there are none of them. My baby will be born on God’s timetable.

This verse particularly was a wonderful comfort when I was on bedrest with Micah, experiencing preterm labor, and when he was born at 32 weeks. This was no surprise–it was God’s perfect plan: His design for our growth in Christlikeness and for His glory to be displayed in and through our lives. And God certainly received the glory from Micah’s birth!

I talked to a dear dear friend today–one of my bridesmaids! :-) She too is pregnant–with their third–and she too is 12 weeks along. She too had a 32-week-NICU baby, and a second pregnancy with progesterone shots, bedrest, and finally (success) a 36-weeker! She too is looking to the Lord in trust that His ways are higher than our ways. It was so incredibly encouraging to talk to her today. Knowing we’re in similar circumstances, and both desiring God’s glory above all!

I pray that with God’s grace, we will both continue to say, “I praise you! Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.”

Few Sandwiches Have Made Me Happier

Daniel worked till 8 tonight, and after putting the kids to bed, I remembered that I had forgotten to eat dinner.

I was starving.

Inspired by pictures of home-grown tomatoes on Suzanne’s blog, a menu for a local pizza/sandwich place which was stuck in our front door, and my general food craving, I made myself a BLT.

Few sandwiches have made me happier than this sandwich did last night:

BLT 011 Vignette-1

Was it the . . .

  • 12-grain whole wheat bread lightly toasted . . .
  • Leafy green lettuce . . .
  • Crispy strips of bacon . . .
  • A touch of mayo . . .
  • Lush ripe red tomatoes (not home-grown, but almost could have passed for home-grown)

Maybe it was just the after-kids-bedtime peace and quiet, eating a delicious sandwich at my own pace for the first time in a lonnnng time!

BLT 008 Vignette

And, if you’re thinking, ‘Who takes a picture of a sandwich?!’

Well . . .

. . . it was THAT good!

Seriously, what’s with all the posts about recipes and food?!?! It must be because I’m pregnant . . .

THIS Guy TP’d My House

TPMicah

Do you recognize him?

DEFINITELY!

MaraWearsMyJacket

I wasn’t going to post anything for Works-For-Me Wednesday or Wordless Wednesday—until my daughter insisted on trying on my jacket.

“Mara, it’s too big,” I warned her. “It’s not going to work for you.”

And as soon as she had she put it on, she exclaimed, “This works for me! This definully works for me!”

So I had to post . . .